Coming Home

I've been home from my freshman year of college for over a week now, and it still feels surreal. I feel like I should be heading back to Greenville any day now. Greenville seems more like home to me now, because I fit in there and feel more comfortable there. Trying to fit in back home is like trying to put a square peg in a round slot - completely impossible. I just don't relate to anyone in Northampton County anymore...I've had so many different experiences and made so many more ties that I ever could have had back here. Isolation is a common feeling that I'm learning to deal with again. It never seemed quite as bad when I was in high school, but after experiencing a taste of city life, the sheer space and quiet chafes at me. Since my place of work has cut back heavily on their hours, I have more free time on my hands than things to do. Sometimes, I feel like I'm trapped in a room that's filling with water. I try to climb the walls but they're so slick and smooth that I can't gain a purchase and slide right back into the water. I try to limit how much I talk to my best friends because I don't want to bother them, but they're basically my life preservers. I will always be a country girl at heart, but I have that city edge to me now that's crying out and pleading with me to return her to where she belongs.