Cleansing and Healing

Getting over a broken heart is tough. What makes it even tougher is when you just can't let go and keep going back to that person. It's almost like they're a drug. You keep trying and trying to get clean, but you're so addicted that any attempt to quit fails. That's how I was; I just couldn't let this guy go. No matter how badly he treated me and how much he left me hanging on a string, I let him have control of my heart. It's hard enough letting someone have the power to break your heart, but when you give it to someone who abuses that power, it makes it really hard for you to trust other guys. I gave him two years of my life and let him treat me as an option when he didn't have anything better. Finally, when I got to college, I realized that my life would be so much better without him in it. Just like a drug, he was dragging me down and not letting me reach my full potential. When I let him go, I felt the biggest relief. I finally realized that I deserved a guy that would treat me right and not hurt me on a consistent basis. Now that I'm over him, I see what a jerk he has become. He is nothing like the guy that I originally fell in love with, the guy that I thought he was. He might have been my first love, but he definitely will not be my last. I deserve so much more than that. I deserve to be happy.