Outpouring of emotions

Why can't you understand how much I love you? You could never find a girl who loves and cares about you more than I do.  I can be perfect for you...but I never get a chance.  Second choice, second best: you think I would be used to it by now.  Every song pierces my heart because it reminds me of what we had, what I feel now or what I want to happen.  My heart can't keep up with the constant barrage of feelings and hurt. It's so banged up and bruised that I don't know how it has survived.  I love you...but it's never enough.  You don't want to be with someone you know wants to be with you. You like the chase.  One day, you're going to get tired of chasing those unattainable girls who aren't worth it anyways. You're going to want me...but I don't know if I'll even be there for you anymore.  There's only so much a girl can take before she hits the breaking point...I think I'm there right now.  The next few weeks will decide where we stand. Baby I love you and want to be with you but I can't stand the indecision and heartbreak.