Conflicted

It's so hard to know what to feel. Your heart is telling you one thing, but your head keeps screaming another. Maybe that's how everyone feels or maybe it's just me. I really don't know but I'm lost.  I want to believe you and I want to always be happy but I'm not always happy.  Is it always supposed to be this complicated? Since it is complicated, is it wrong? I really have no idea anymore.  When we're together, everything is so simple and easy and effortless.  Why can't it be like that all the time? It just really upsets me when you hardly text me or anything at all. That may seem stupid or childish but it's the truth. I can't hide what I feel and though I can't quite explain why I feel the way I do, the feelings are definitely there.  Maybe we just need to talk and I mean really talk. Because, I feel lost and so confused. I'm hoping everything will work out because you are such a part of me now. It hasn't been that long, but we've gotten so close so quickly and I know it will tear me apart inside if something happens and I lose you.