Damaged

You could say I'm an emotional wreck or that I'm damaged. I have more scars, physically and emotionally, than you could ever count. Yes, I've been hurt. Yes, I overreact. No, I won't blame you for my past. I used to hold onto things, let them bog me down until I would break. I'd cry myself to sleep at night, wishing the pain would stop, wondering what I did that was so wrong. Everywhere I looked was dark and there was no sign of it ever getting better. 

Then one day I realized that I could walk in the dark forever or I could find the light. I could find the simple happiness, the silver lining, in every day. One simple laugh or one little miracle is all it would take to bring the light back. Now I look in the mirror and instead of seeing that broken girl I was, I see the strong woman I have become. Yes I still know pain and suffering and tears and yes my heart still hurts...but I don't let it break me. I can not be broken. I will not be broken.

The explanation is quite simple really. It's like I had been walking so long in the rain, that I had forgotten what the sun felt like. Now I'm remembering, now I'm feeling it again. Every day gets easier, breath by breath.